My name is Barbara Doduk aka B, or Bee.
Regretful Groupies is my recounting of The Strange Days of Matthew Good. This is an introduction to my past and my connection with Canadian Singer Matthew Good.
I was married, then divorced, and my last name was in fact Doll for some years of my life. Yes my name was Barbara Doll.
I wrote for Exclaim Magazine under that name, once went on CFOX radio morning show with Jeff O’Neil with that name.
To those that know me I am B.
I Hear Matt Good is a Real Asshole
March 12, 2021: I was accepted into the Facebook Group titled “Victims of Matthew Good” and I began posting my experiences. Below are screenshots of the first information I posted – although, as I always stated – I am not a victim of Matthew Good.
Parts of this website will elaborate on what I touched on in this post.
Matthew Good & The Bee: 1998 to 2022
Over the years there were ups and downs to be sure, disagreements, misunderstandings, and there was a time when I had “feelings” – I had told Matt Good I was “in love” with him once in 2000 and admittedly I was a little confused about what we were doing briefly in 2006 – but that was a long time ago, another lifetime it seems.
Honest truth is, I was a willing participant in anything we shared and am just as responsible for my instigations, as he is his, we were equally monstrous to one another at times.
But the most important part – Matthew Good never coerced me into doing anything I wasn’t willing to do, and never has been physically abusive or aggressive physically with me, in fact he has always been a very careful lover. He would always ask before, during and after if every detail was ok, if I was ok.
That might seem like too much information. However, given the accusations of abuse against him in 2021 – I think it has to be said. Matthew was never violent with me, never aggressive physically or verbally abusive with me, never threatened harm on me, and honestly I can’t imagine him forcing himself on anyone. My experiences are the very opposite.
Opinions Are Like Assholes
In my opinion Matthew is an absolute sex addicted perverted man. That has always been a constant in his existence with me, and in my experience with him. As a mild pervert myself, it is one of the qualities I had adored about his personality. As a recovering sex addict myself – I see it.
I always said I was willing to listen to the other women accusing him of abuse – I still am. I understand that a person can be one way with you and a total other kind of person with someone else. However, the stories I read from these women, and the private message conversations I had with some women – all seemed like they were consensual.
The only thing that struck me – these women were full of regret.
Quite probably rightly so, as the man has a horrible way of making you regret ever knowing him. I don’t regret my history with him, but he owes me and many others an apology for his behaviour.
I don’t think I will get one, which is sad because I have forgiven him too many times over the 25 years I had considered him a friend.
Not a Victim
I am not regretful, life is too short to hang on to such feelings. I am certainly not a victim.
My Matthew Good story in 5 parts spanning from 1998 to 2022 explaining our history.
- Part 1: Died for You
- Part 2: MGB Days 98-99
- Part 3: Bizarre Love Triangle
- Part 4: Life is a Bugger
- Part 5: B Groupie
In my future posts, many of the points in the summary will be expanded on.
Updated/Edited June 15, 2024 Originally uploaded December 31, 2021